if i had.

what happens if someone told you that you had three days left to live. and then you'll die after that? what would you do?

if that happened to me. i think i'll have a really long list to do before i die.

i'd be in shock. and i'll cry first. i mean. if you had three months. you have more time to do what you really want to do. and its easier i guess. but three days. i'll call everyone up and tell them that i love them. and how much that they have touched my life in anyway. and if i don't have your number. i guess i'll write you a letter. cause many people has touched my life in a way or another.

i would want to forgive my dad before i die. and not hold anymore contempt for him when i die. i want to die a happy girl. one without grudges.

i would want to visit my primary school. and secondary school as well. cause they hold too many memories there. and i want to go there. to thank the teachers for teaching me the things they did. that made me who i am today. especially thise who has made an impact in my life.

i would give a kiss to every guy i have ever liked. i don't know why. it seems logical. like a could have been kind of moment.

i want to go to church. and give all the people i know there a hug. because hugs are wonderful.

and tell mummy i love her over and over again. and tell her that i'm sorry. for being such a horrible daughter. skipping school and lying all the time. its difficult for you to bring me up. i know. and i'm sorry for that.

and i want to go for mass everyday. and finally go for confession. after so long. absolve me of all my sins.

finally. before i die. i want to call my special someone. whoever he is. tell him that i love him with all my heart. and i want to marry him. even thought its for three days. and tell him sorry that i can't give him kids. but i don't know if he loves me or not. gosh. i think i think too much. i'll be happy if i died married to the person i love. i don't care if its only for three days. i don't care if he doesn't love me. cause its only for three days.

i want to tell shabin thank you for rocking my world.
and sheryl. cause these 11 year of friendship. gosh. no words can explained. we cried together. laughed together. been through so much together. i just want to thank her for being so amazing. and holding me when i cry.
jared, amanda, audrey. my showers of blessings. these droplets of joy. and i never knew that you three. can make my life so amazing. so complete. its beause of you people. that i can smile and laugh. and be myself. be totally crazy. i love my little droplets!
and to that pig. for letting me know who i truly am. and never gave up on me. when i'm sick. when i was going to give up on myself. you never gave up on me. and thank you for realising how important it is to believe in myself. and to believe in love. and that i can never saty angry with you.

and priss, charmaine, and lexine and christie. and all the darlings. oh! jasper too! if i die three days from now. i will miss you all.
and i got a funeral to prepare for too. if my last three days starts from now. and my pig shall handle it for me. not mummy. cause i know she will do a bad job about it. i hope pig saved a copy of my will. you better!